The Effects of the 3rd Wheel

I guess I should have been a bit more prepared when it happened. But I wasn't. I forgot that I needed to be extra strong because I was at a weak point. After having been the 3rd wheel and the ugly duckling for over 3 weeks... I was definitely at a weak point. No matter how secure and confident you think you might be... these things can really get to you. And I guess my last week in Italy I also wasn't spending enough time with Jesus... another very big opening for a weak moment! And it happened... I fell into the trap. I fell into the arms of some Italian speaking man.
Now before any of you get all excited... it wasn't like that!

He was the waiter at the resort.. who noticed me! Problem number one! After so long of not being noticed at all... I really enjoyed being noticed. As any girl would! And when he would give me pasta... his 'prego' was so softly spoken! I was flattered! And then my silly friends and I wanted to go out one night while at the resort. And I, being the Italian speaking one of the bunch (obviously my gorgeous soon-to-be-married best friend wasn't with us)... I had to go ask the waiter what was going on in the area! And then he offered to take us out! Where's the harm in that?!? Oh! I knew the harm... and I told one of my friends... don't let me get to close to him... I'm having a weak moment! But she isn't one of those protective friends... and the other girl we were was just trying to get married. The whole situation wasn't looking very good.

But I stayed strong... because well, him and I didn't speak the same language very well... my italian and his english were definitely very minimal. And uh... I would never live in Italy... I had already decided that! So there could be no relationship. But then... he made a fire for us on the beach in the middle of the night. And I had never seen so many stars in the sky before. It was so romantic... any girl would fall into the trap! So I cuddled on the beach in Italy with this Italian guy named Carmen!

I can't say that I regret it! It would have been nice if my first beach bonfire was with... my husband! But it was with Carmen... a man I'll never see again.

I just hate having those weak girly moments! When you fall into a trap just because it looks like a movie... and you think life should be like that. But it really shouldn't! And after being alone with a couple for so long... you start to feel like you're missing something too. And then the opportunity arises for a couple moment! But it's fake... and I'm still trying to decide if it was worth it!

Matthew 6:33
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.