The Ugly Duckling

Have you ever had the opportunity to have a friend who was really gorgeous? I mean, not just good-looking... but stop people dead in their tracks kind of gorgeous?!? Well, for some reason I have! lol. My best friend happens to be gorgeous. Some say she is like a cross between Alicia Keys and Jada Pinkett... she's got light-skin, full lips and a big ole backside (hahaha! and she's gonna kill me for writing this). All this to say that she is very good-looking. But Lord knows that it does annoy me! I mean, can we ever go ANYWHERE without someone mentioning it! If it isn't some man on the street... it's some lady in the store! And if it isn't bad enough that the strangers mention it... but so do the people you know! "Oh wow! Your friend is very good-looking!" Blah, blah, blah!

Now I know what you're thinking! Well, at least I'm going to make an assumption about what you're thinking! You think that I am... jealous! Well let me tell you are I am so far from jealous... well, maybe not that far! Lol! No, but seriously... jealousy isn't one of my struggles! I would never want to be soooooooooooooooo good-looking that I can't get from point A to point B without someone needing to stop me! I spend most of my time in a big rush... no time to stop and chat about beauty! And, shockingly enough, I don't REALLY like to talk to people! I'd just rather carry on with my shopping or my day without the interaction with the people I have nothing to say to!

But I must say... that the more I walk around with this pre-Hollywood Halle Berry... I start to feel a little insecure! I have to start to ask myself... is she really that exceptionally beautiful or does everyone get stopped this often besides me!?! And I start to feel a little embarassed when people tell her that she is beautiful and then their eye wanders to me... and then they just decide to look away! Hahaha! Almost as though they wonder why such a gorgeous girl would want to hang out with me?!?! And lately, I find myself trying to find something exciting to do to myself to look exceptionally great... hoping that I might not always look like the ugly friend. And thus far I haven't been too successful in finding anything!

This just happens to be another reality in my life... like the bubbles... that I must face! But I do know that beauty isn't everything and doesn't last forever! And I also know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder! Oh! and beauty comes from within! But sometimes I wonder if all these sayings started by the gorgeous people in the world trying to make thier not-so good-looking friend feel better! Hahaha!

Honestly though, I don't want you to think that I think that I am ugly... or that my best friend is horrible. Neither are true... she's great... and I feel great! hahaha. In the past I can definitely say that I struggled with self-esteem issues... and it was a long journey but I can say that I have overcome! I am genuinely secure in myself... and I can only thank God for that. His Love has given me the freedom to love me. Now I just need to remember this when I am shopping with my best friend ;)

Proverbs 31:30

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;

but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.